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10_Awareness. I thought I was a person who really liked expressing myself. I liked being in the spotlight. I really liked standing in front or speaking. I just thought that. It hasn't been long since I realized my contradiction. But when I saw myself saying that I really hated saying things I didn't mean, I suddenly thought that maybe the word 'expression' had the premise of 'towards me' in it. I might have been a very stingy person when it came to expressing myself to others. That person likes me. That person seems to hate me. It seems like that was the standard for approaching others. When I think about it, it must have been from my childhood when I started learning the words 'together' and 'together'. Everyone seemed to be getting along well, but I wondered why I was so clearly divided between those who hated me and those who liked me. Same But the important thing here is Because I was looking for problems in others I ended up not even being interested in people who didn't approach me And at some point, it seemed like my interest in others disappeared I was just busy being true to my feelings And I hated getting my feelings hurt more than anything So I was armed with a boldness that seemed to be free of feelings, no matter where I was. That person had grown into a person with a great sense of expression. However, people who didn't know me well said that I was a person who was hard to approach, and some even said that I was indifferent, even though they thought I was kind. I was just a person with a strong sense of self-esteem. In fact, I didn't want to know why people who hated me hated me. I was curious, but I wanted to be steadfast. I didn't even wonder what people who loved me so passionately thought. Once I found out, the burden turned into annoyance. The strange, bizarre, and bad habits were pushing someone away. Maybe that's why my cats were enough to comfort me, and the only people I cared for were those who seemed weak in the world and those I had to protect. And I also believed that I was strong-hearted even on my own. It can't change overnight, but it's not to me, but to me, expression. The direction of the word Because there is a target, I plan to change it little by little Someone told me Do one-tenth, no, one-hundredth of what you do to a cat Do it to a person Then you'll get married??!!!, ㅠㅠ What kind of person am I? I'm still an unstable and insignificant being But unconditional love exists even in a person like me, Looking at 13-year-old cats I'm finding, realizing, and learning reasons why I should be a better person #Record Club #힘내우리난猫해너희로人해