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⟡Healthy Passion 'Am I living diligently?' 'Is my passion healthy?' 'Am I doing my best with sustainable passion?' Looking back, there was never a time when I didn't live diligently. I spent a total of 12 years in elementary, middle, and high school studying for college, and started working less than a week after the college entrance exam. In the 10 years, I've never taken a break from work and have always done my best. I've heard criticisms like, "What are you doing living so diligently?" and encouragement like, "You're amazing for living so diligently." Whatever the intention, I was definitely someone who lived 'diligently' in the eyes of others. However, I always doubted my diligence. "If you live diligently, you should live well. If you live diligently, you should do well. If you live diligently, you should be happy. Why am I not like that?" Of course, sometimes I was happy, sometimes I was joyful, and sometimes things went well. But I was so entangled in the momentary achievements that I just enjoyed the rest of my life saying, “I’m a happy person!” I was so busy beating myself up for the results that were not proportional to the sweat and tears I had shed, and shouting, “I have to work harder. Harder, harder!” when I had no more ability to do anything here, and I was busy driving myself into a hell of hard work. Then one winter, IU’s story about “healthy hard work” on You Quiz came to mind. “I thought I lived hard, but I only worked hard. Can you say I lived hard? I didn’t work as hard as others in anything else. What I was addicted to was not “achievement, fulfillment,” but the “stimulation” that work gave me. Was it really healthy “hard work”? I need to live healthily by balancing work and life.” <You Quiz on the Block - IU> The reason I couldn’t acknowledge myself even though I filled my days with 20 hours was because my hard work wasn’t healthy. I lived through the day tiredly, but for some reason, my body was always swollen, and although I was busy with my daily routine, I didn’t notice my mom and dad’s aging years, and above all, I didn’t take care of myself who lived diligently. I just ran with all my might like a racehorse, so I didn’t have time to look back at the green meadows, the beautiful sky, the wide ocean, and the owner who lovingly fed and raised me, and I couldn’t look at my horse’s hooves that were worn down to the point of rotting, and I was only focused on running toward the finish line. It took me exactly 10 years to realize and admit this fact. Even if it wasn’t perfect, I made a ‘healthy passion’ list so that I wouldn’t collapse when I had to run again, and if I felt like I was running too hard, I would leave the racecourse for a moment and look back at these records. And I wholeheartedly cheer for everyone to do their best in healthy passion. [This year’s ‘healthy passion’ list] 1. I devote myself to looking after myself, my surroundings, and those I love. ‘Love’ is always the number one keyword for me. 2. If your body is healthy, your mind will be healthy too. Let's not be lazy about taking care of my body. 3. Let's listen to what 'just Kang Ji-eun' wants to do, not 'Kang Ji-eun who works'. Hobbies soon give me satisfaction and stability. 4. Let's work hard and do our best at the work given to us, but don't let work consume us. Work is not me. Let's find a balance between work and life. 5. No matter what the result is, let's tell myself that I worked hard for living each day. As often as possible. #Record Club #낭만있는소비