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Back to Me | Back to Me On my way home from work. I clearly saw that the train to Incheon was coming from Jongno 3-ga. I knew it clearly until the subway pulled in. But the moment the doors opened and the empty seats caught my eye, my body moved before I could think. “Ah… I want to sit down.” With that single thought, I boarded the train without thinking and plopped down in a seat. Was the relief of sitting down too great to counteract the fatigue accumulated all day? I only set the arrival alarm, looked at my phone for a moment, and closed my eyes, but when I woke up to the sound of the alarm, I was at Anyang Station. T_T Only then did I realize. That I had boarded a train going in the wrong direction. As I walked to transfer to the subway going back, this thought suddenly crossed my mind. There have been so many moments like this in my life... Even though I vaguely knew it wasn't right, “It’ll be okay this time.” “This time, it will be different.” Moments when I impulsively made a choice because of the sweetness right in front of me or immediate comfort, or because I wanted to escape the weariness of the present moment as quickly as possible. At the time, it certainly seemed like I was getting comfortable for a brief moment, but looking back, those were times that ultimately made me take a much longer detour. Just like the subway I took the wrong way today. Just as the desire to sit down and travel comfortably for a moment ended up making me take a much longer route. Still, the fortunate thing about life is that if you realize you’ve come the wrong way, you can go back. It might take a little longer, but you just need to set your direction again and keep going. Waiting for the subway back at Anyang Station, I, now a middle-aged man, suddenly had such a thought. Perhaps the person I am now isn't a failure, but rather someone learning the right path again. Because even if it's a bit slow, I must keep going without losing my direction. . . . #GoingBack #BackToMe #ThoughtsOnTheWayHome #TodaysRecord #RecordOfMiddleAge #CornSoupRecord #WorkingMomLife #StartingAgain