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I am a middle-aged woman in my 50s who still prefers the analog world. It has already been three years since I jumped into this space out of necessity, and also because people around me told me that I needed to understand the digital world to run my own business. The saying that in the AI ​​era, you can do anything just by moving your fingers. It is a very appealing phrase, but from my perspective as someone who doesn't know much about it, it seems like a far-fetched story, and the more I don't know, the more afraid I am. I worry that I might make a huge mistake if I approach this haphazardly, or that I might end up ruining myself for no reason. So, I am someone who is slowly walking down a path I did not want to take, out of necessity. Like the "chicken or the egg" dilemma, at some point, my resolve began to waver depending on whether my subscriber count increased or decreased. "Am I on the right track?" "Am I perhaps spitting in my own face?" I thought that, just like in the offline world, if I showed my sincerity, someone would reach out to me. However, because I revealed so much of my inner self in this space during my most difficult times, I now wonder if people are leaving because they have grown tired of me. That is why, even though I sometimes leave this space for a month or two, I eventually return with the mindset that I must try again to survive, and I am now sharing my daily life and thoughts. I am ignorant and slow. And the current situation is so complex that it is difficult to keep my wits about me. However, I am struggling to survive and making my way through each day. To others, I may look depressed and gloomy. But I believe there are certainly people like me who still find this world unfamiliar and difficult. In this world, I am receiving healing, gaining knowledge, and learning so many things that I could not have learned offline. Although I am a bit slow, if someone even slower than me were to jump into this world, I would like to share with them what kind of ending awaited them at the end of the confusion I am currently experiencing. I hope that the grumbling of a middle-aged woman, struggling to survive while learning about both the offline and online worlds, will one day remain as a valuable experience. Everyone, let's make today a good one for a good ending. Even if the results aren't as good as the effort put in, I hope that the process of trying will at least be recognized. A middle-aged woman, worrying about her old age… Today, relying on the power of three cans of beer, I’m taking a "Red Sun"… ^^ Looking at the sleeping face of my mother, who is approaching 80, and the sleeping face of my youngest son, who will soon become an adult, I think to myself. "I'm sure I'm not the only one struggling." "Everyone must be living with their own burdens." So, today, I steel my resolve once again. Even if no one tells me the answer, even if no one sets the direction for me, I intend to walk one step at a time on the path I believe is right. Even if it is slow, I hope this path, rather than a winding one, will someday become a source of small courage for someone. I am still learning, too. I hope that the path I have walked will one day become a small compass for the family I love most. And please… Hoping that this path I am walking right now is not the wrong one, but the right one, I take another step forward today. 😊 And… I believe there may have been some who felt uncomfortable because of my story, contrary to what I had expected. If these parts stemmed from my shortcomings and clumsiness, I hope you will understand with generosity. Nevertheless, I sincerely thank everyone who listened to my story and stayed with me until the end. I am still learning, too. Even if it is a little slow, I will strive to become a better person tomorrow than I am today so that we can walk together. Thank you sincerely for reading until the end. 🤍 . . . #Thanks #SelfReflection #CornSoupFilm #CornSoupRecord #TodaysMe #TomorrowsMe #HouseholdLife #Life #TodaysHome