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When loneliness tastes sweet. [12 PM] Keyword: My own space The time that was filled with the children’s chattering voices all weekend becomes quiet after 10 AM on Monday. Originally, this quiet time was so lonely that I had to make plans with people and do something to forget the loneliness, but after giving birth and raising a child, I started to want to be lonely so badly. Maybe that’s why I used to like spring, but now I like fall. I enjoy the cold wind brushing my skin, the trees outside the window with low saturation, and the high sky that I can’t reach, but when I come home, I finish cleaning and sit in my new study to start my ‘real day.’ I drink tea, do QT, watch a drama I wanted to see, or sometimes call my mom and talk about my grandchildren for a long time, and before I know it, it’s lunchtime. The sunlight seeps deep into the study desk in the dining room. A time when loneliness doesn’t feel bitter but sweet. When I, who used to feel lonely when eating alone, realized that eating alone tastes sweet, loneliness started to feel okay. When I look at the neatly organized living room, I feel calm, but soon when the kids come, my calm heart will also rise, so I should enjoy this quietness. Today, I put the newly purchased cushion cover on the chair. It was originally on the sofa, but the kids left it on the floor while playing, so I put it here without thinking, but it matched the atmosphere so well, and it was an unexpected discovery! This is another small joy of today. When I asked the kids, “How was your day?”, they were so distracted by the autumn flowers blooming on the roadside that they didn’t even know what I was saying. When will you be the first to ask your mom, “Mom, how was your day?” When that day comes, I should tell you this. “Mom, you know, I enjoyed today, even though it was lonely, quite well.”